Sunday, November 30, 2008

i was so cought up to dis fairy tale things dat make me a fairy tale freak ..
happily ever after stuff .. prince charming saving me on a white horse ..
dat i'll owez be happy .. dat i'll owez knew dat i cud have my own happiness ..

dat all have make me forget about reality most of d time ..
dats y when reality strikes back at me i dont feel my life have any value left ..
i'm such a loser n all i really wanted is to end all dis ..

i've been so lost, blank and all i cud ever want is sumone who cud appreciate me ..
luv me fer who i am, never push me wen i said no ..
persuaded me might work on sum things ..
but not wen i lost my mood over things .. personal things ..

i'm devastated ..
i'm heart broken ..
i'm frustrated beyond words ..
angel might never looked at me ..
God may never bless me ..
so wat on earth am i doing here ..????

i'm willing to take my own life ..
but my faith said its not worth it ..
so i wait n wait ..

i wish fer my happy ending which wont ever come ..
i wish fer a prince charming on a white steed who never appear ..
i wish i cud be happy fer who i am ..

but there's still sumone or sumthing who wants to take it away from me ..
wat wrong have i done?
why shud i cry fer matters i shudn't have to ..?

a company ..
a shoulder ..
a smile ..
care ..
love ..
caress ..

i guess dats a long list to fullfill ..
i shud never ask so much ..
i'll just stop ..

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