date : 18th August 2007 saturday 0032 hrs

subject : i've been dumped .. (how pathetic was i?)

evening people ..

just before midnite, i've been ask to be away from sumone .. how long have i known dis man? quite long to know he wud never had done dis to me, but may be i'm just too afraid to realize its going to end up like dis anyway .. rite now i'm just too sad to realized he's send me away, from his life, his heart and his mind .. he made me laugh, he made me cry, he also d one who made me smile in tears i had cried over simple things like d one happened now ..

i thought he said .. or may be i was dreaming dat he had said those things i heard .. its hard to realize u r not cut out to be wit the person u really wanna be wit .. its even harder when he's d only person dat u want to b wit .. after all dat we've been thru, in d end u r d one who's still crying .. i realize i will never be wit him, i just didnt realize he never did want to be with me .. hmm, its break my heart, he break my heart .. i thought he never will break my heart, but he did .. i'm still wondering y ..

my heart calling ur name

wondering n searching ur scent

wondering what went wrong

cos i've waited fer u fer so long

i'm drown in ur well of love

try breathing d air as i move

been lost in ur forest of smile

as tho u wud save one fer me

i'm sorry fer d wrong i've done

i never meant any of it but one

if this wrong makes u leave me alone

please tell me now, so i can mend n return

there's no use fer me to beg n bend on my knee, fer he d person who i wud give my whole heart to will never come back no matter wat i do .. i'm running out of fthings to think of y he left, of y he mistreated me like dis .. tomorrow will start witout me being able to whisper his name again, witout d air blows my hugs n kisses, witout any thought of me n u .. i'm falling, i never knew where will i end up to .. so to u who i would give my whole heart to, i let u let me go if dats wat u wanted .. fergive me if i cant stop loving u as u have stop loving me ..