Friday, February 20, 2009

14th February 2009
p/s: i love you

I dont know, but all d sudden dis v day just making me feel all mushy and sloppy .. d show on tv is all lovey dovey, radio is mostly d same .. my niece and nephew also includes to making today is almost hell fer my feeling .. and without any gud excuses i'm making myself sensitive and teary; i didnt know why but i'm feeling so lonely and really alone ..

i do have frens and my family is close to me, but its just making me feel so lost and sad .. all d sudden i just reminded back to a love dat i cud have but i cant .. a love dat i wanted but was denied .. a love dat most welcome but had forbid to me .. i hate dis feeling, i cud cry over dis .. it felt right at one point but on d other hand, it doesnt ..

fer a dreamer i cannot touch, i send my love in a lullaby
fer a lilps i cannot kiss, i blow u one right now
fer a waist i cannot hold, i send to u my biggest kiss
fer a love i cannot consummate, i send to u my hottest letters
i only see u thru my computer, but i love u just d same
so i send to u dis page of dreams, to be my voice to u
and dis wonderful lullaby fer u to sleep
so we can hear it as we sleep, and touch in our dreams

its just a wonderful thing in life, but y people keep taking me fer granted? was i doomed not to have love at all???

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

Its February Again ..

Aper la yang sibuk sangat ngan bulan febuari ni? Bukannyer ader aper pun sebenarnye, its just sebab kite selalu tengok so jadi macam kebiasaan la, bukannya nak menyambut pun sebenarnye, cuma bila orang yang bercinta mula menunjuk2 nak2 lagi bulan ni, kita pun jadi terasa sama la bahang hangatnya cinta tu .. cheh bahasa ku ..

cam orang yang ader boyfren/girlfren, ader tunang, ader suami/isteri .. mesti seronok nak menghangatkan dunia cinta diorang, yang masih sendiri cam sya ni, pandang je la .. sedih ke? tak de la jugak, just terasa je .. kalau ader boyfren pun, bukannye leh sambut .. bukan nak sambut pun sebenarnye, just nak menunjuk .. tapi bukan ader orang faham pun .. nanti diorang akan cakap takkan nak jadi kafir kut .. astagaaaa ..

bukan nak ikut mengamalkan ajaran kafir .. menyambut kelahiran valentino tu .. cume nye, hmm meriah sket hidup kalau dihargai masa ni .. tul tak? (ke aku je ni?) pionss ooo pionss .. nak la bunge dalam 2, 3 tangkai .. bunge ros pink tau .. (cian nyer aku ni, sampai mintak kat pions lagi) huhuhuhuhu kadang bile teringat cinta yang tak kesampaian tu kan, sedih gak .. sedih sebab tak kesampaian .. ntah aper la masalah nyer yang leh tak kesampaian tu .. bukan nyer ader mintak aper pun, tapi tak de jodoh gak .. iye la kut ..

hmmm