Everyone assumes dat being in love is dat top-of-d world feeling dat never fades. What so many dont realize that, while its a great, wonderful feeling - a chemistry dat works like magic just fer d two of u, a special aura dat cocoons u from d rest of d world, it has it setbacks too.

Wen u love sumone so much, it can really hurts wen things arent going rite between d two of u. D quarrels, wen they come, are terrible. U are so naked and vulnerable to being hurt. They know exactly how to hurt u. D agony of waiting fer d mails dat doesnt arrive, d words, which are no longer said, d time and d hug dat isnt there fer u anymore. And wen they smile in sumone else's direction and not urs, ur insides hurt like hell.

Storm is a mild expression wen lovers quarrel. Jealousy, wen it raises its ugly head, is uglier than u tot. Hurled accusations and more hit d walls wen u feel insecure. Threatened by d possible loss of dat love u've been able to count on fer so long. D time fer making up is also a time wen a small part of u dies within. Ur dignity and ur self-esteem suffer a severe blow in dat lovers' quarrel.

Yet u want no one else. Its their arms dat u still want around u. Its their murmured words of love u long to hear. Its finally them; too, u want to spent d rest of ur years with.

If wen I closed my eyes to dream
My every dream came true
Then I would close my eyes
And dream of u
I would dream of ur lovely eyes
As they gazed longingly into mine
Filled with so much love
And sparkling in d moonshine
I would dream of ur perfect lips
Held just slightly apart
And thru kissing them
I would kiss ur heart
I would dream of ur slender fingers
As they caressed my hair
Sending small shivers up my spine
In d warm night air
I would dream of ur whisper
So very close to my ear
Telling me not to be lonely
Fer u will always be here
And I would dream of uy love
As it surrounded me tight
And held me
Warm and safe
Thru out d nite
If dreams came true

Last night was very silent - silent with the deep, profound quiet of great uninhabited spaces. Suddenly I remembered my past. I had never before felt so completely removed and apart from d trivial current, d petty happenings of life. D deep silences possessed me with a feeling of absolute peace. I felt dat wat had happened would teach me to forget d sharpness of my sorrow, d shame of it. I had been made to feel that I could never hold up my head again nor look anyone in d face. I tot dat there was sumthing relentless and cruel about d manner of him leaving me.

Bit had gone without a warning, flinging me in d dust of d roadway. All those tots were present in my mind but already they had lost sumthing of their power to hurt and wound me. There was no moon, but in d starlite d contours of d landscape, d shapes of d trees, d outlines of d shadowy sentinel buildings were dimly visible. Here and there, a lonely lite gleamed like a jewel from some remote dwelling in d hills of Kundang Jaya.

And now, d death of Bit's memory flung wide d shut gate and release me. It had made me free. Free to love anyone. But sumtimes d way to d heart's desire is a difficult, painful way, costing too much, levying too heavy a toll and it was thus dat I now regarded d fact of my freedom. It seemed a frightful thing, bought with so heavy price dat now d gift was mine I dared not to look upon it, but hid my eyes. To me Bit is dead, but his hands still held me in a cruel and merciless grasp and I felt dat I dared not take this, her last 'gift' to me - d 'gift of my freedom'.

A teardrop fell and touched d ground
Wen it landed it made no sound
In all d world there was no one who saw
Dat tiny teardrop fall softly upon d forest floor
There was not a single soul who knew
Dat teardrop was shed fer u
Except a tiny angel who scooped it from d dirt
Who knew its value was far more than just hurt
She held dat little tear so very tight
And flew to u with all her might
D urgent whisper of her wings as she flew to u
Said that she had d most important job to do
By wing across d ocean it took a week
Before dat tiny tear fell upon ur cheek
U felt d moisture and wondered y
Wen there was no cloud in d sky
Suddenly ur heart sang as it knew
Sumone u tot lost had shed a tear over u
Ur heart skipped a beat n began to race
As u saw in ur mind dat wonderful face
Once again u felt d love u had shared
U had run away because u were scared
And u wished so hard dat u had my heart
Dat we had never separated, were never apart
D little angel took d tear from ur cheek
And flew so hard fer another week
It carried dat tear from u to me
So ur love i could plainly see
So two hearts could join from far away
And maybe be together on one future day